Tonight, I broke down during my weekly class at Rehab United. I cried. Now, did I cry in front of anyone? Well, not really. But the bathroom door shielded me from watchful eyes. I really don't think the workout was to blame... just ultra sensitive tonight...
I've been having a lot of doubts lately... will I be able to perform on race day? I've set expectations for myself... others have most likely done the same for me since they see me putting in the hours... but what if I fail? What if I don't come close to my goals? What if I'm aiming too high? I don't feel like I'm getting better. Some days, I feel stronger... but most days, I see those around me improving and I put in the time... and don't feel like I'm accomplishing anything major. I don't know what it is... but I cannot get past my own fears, my own walls...
So what if you fail? Its part of learning and growing, as a person and an athlete. I've failed more times than I care to count. I pick myself up, dust off, and try again. That's all you can do. Keep trying. You'll get there. You are getting better. You just have to remember that the only person you are truly in competition with is yourself.
ReplyDeleteI guess it depends on what you call failure, Becca. I would say that even if you don't meet your goals in time or improvements, you have accomplished so so so much and that in itself is success. I think you set goals to keep you motivated to keep going, not for the end result. So what if you fail to meet a time goal? Just means you have motivation to keep working on it and keep going.
ReplyDeleteI am impressed with how active you are, and you continue to inspire me to stay as active as I can in my life. Feel good about that!!